New start

I have decided that R needs to leave my life. In the 6 weeks he has been back, I have been mostly miserable. It seems like everything that could go wrong has. My car has been broke down about 26 out of the last 30 days, the well stopped working, I got turned down for a loan, work has started to frustrate me again, insurance went up. I know none of that is his fault but he doesnt make any of it better. He wants a friend he can have sex with when he feels like it and ignore the rest of the time. I am not wanting that kind of relationship at all. He works 2 jobs and when he is off work he isn't with me. There is nothing for me in that relationship.
Thankfully someone came out and fixed the well yesterday. Some wires had broke in half. But now the cold water in the back half of the trailer is very very slow. I checked my credit report as part of my getting back on track and about everything on there comes off December of 2008. So I am thinking March of 2009, I will buy a trailer. I want to buy a piece of land next year and start getting it ready for the trailer. By March, I will be able to put the land up and some money down for the trailer and I will have 3 years of solid on time payments on my student loans and 2 years on my target card. I can finally see everything starting to come together.

long time no post

I can't believe how long its been since I posted. R is still in my life some days are ok and some days aren't. We went to the races in Wytheville last night. The race was fun but the ride up wasn't. R now has a place of his own so I don't see him as much. Work has been very busy and I am hoping everything goes ok for the next week. My boss is on vacation and anything thats export related means I am going to have to deal with it.
On a positive note, I have started walking again and I am down 10lbs now. I am sort of following the adkins diet but not to strict right now. My car is broke down again. I am so tired of that. I guess I am going to have to get a loan and get it fixed once and for all.