Book Quotes

I found some really inspiring quotes in the book I was reading last Friday.  I enjoyed the book very much. Debbie Macomber is one of my favorite writers. Both of these quotes spoke to me.
1. "It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere." Agnes Repplier-  I see so many people chasing happiness, first doing this and then doing that, being involved with one person after another trying to find someone who makes them happy. If you aren't happy in yourself, then there isn't anything that anyone else can do to make you happy. You have to find the cure inside of you for your unhappiness before you can be happy with others. So many relationships end because instead of working on their own selves people want others to fix their lives.

2. " The greater part of our happiness or misery depends on our dispositions and not on our circumstances." - Martha Washington. How often do you see someone who has everything you want and yet they aren't happy. I have seen people who had basically nothing, yet they are happy as can be. Happiness doesn't come from stuff but from within. As Paul says in Philippians 4:11 basically we must be content  no matter whats going on in our lives. We can be as content in the midst of a raging storm as we are on a calm sunny day. Everything passes, we just have to hang on.

5 Things I am Grateful for Today

1. Nice customers- I had a man come in yesterday and ask me if I wanted some copy paper. He gave me 2 packs of copy paper. I use a lot at my house printing coupons and various items so I thought that was super nice.
2. My best friend Debbie and her husband- Debbie is always there when I need anything. Yesterday she brought me some gas drops for my youngest granddaughter because I said something about buying some when I got paid this week coming. She has had my back more times than I can count. Also her husband helps out a lot. He made me a stand to hang my bird feeder on a couple months back.
3. Birds- I just love to watch all the colorful birds at the feeder. I have all kinds of birds coming. I have to fill it up about once a week. I like to use the black oil sunflower seeds best of all. I have cardinals, blue jays, wrens, yellow finches, plus a lot that I don't know. I am going to start trying to figure out what they all are.
4. Extra hours at work- This week I am getting 40 hours again. I am planning to get some stuff done with these extra checks. I want to try to get some Christmas stuff done up ahead of time.
5. Tomatoes- I noticed yesterday that 2 of the tomatoes on my tomato plant were starting to get red. I can't wait to taste the fresh tomatoes.

Job Hunting and Gratitude.

I have been applying for some jobs lately. I love love love my current job but it is only 20 hrs a week and I am expected to be on call in case something happens (which did this week so I got 40 hrs and next week will be getting 40 also) but normally I am not called in. So I can't really get another job although I am thinking of trying for a home aide. Basically you go in an elderly person's home and check on them, light cleaning and cooking and take them to dr's appts. I can do that a couple days a week assuming those days aren't wrote in stone.  But I have also applying for 4 full time jobs. 3 are with the state since they have such awesome benefits. I have only heard back from one of them so far and have an appointment on Monday. I am leaving it in God's hands and if I get it then I know its what He wants for me right now.
If you are job hunting I recommend Indeed you can create email alerts and they will email you every day with the new postings for your area. I like them because they pull from a wide variety of sources so you don't have to go to all the different job boards.

I am currently reading a book by Debbie Macomber called Thursdays at Eight and I saw something on a page that gave me an inspiration. I think I am going to try to remember every time I post to put 5 things I am grateful for. That way I can look back and remember my blessings and hopefully it will encourage me to express more gratitude in life.

1.  Being able to work more hours this week and next. I need the extra money right now.
2.  Water- will blog about this one day and share my experience.
3.  The car continuing to run. - I am so paranoid about this now.
4.  Grace- I am so thankful that I can experience God's Grace on a daily basis.
5. 3 lbs lost-. I have been trying real hard this week to exercise more by walking a bit each hour.  

Feeling out of control of my life

Its been over a month since I blogged. I just can't seem to get a handle on life lately. I am so frustrated since my daughter and her children moved in. I don't see a way she is ever going to be able to afford a place of her own to get out my house but they are driving me insane. I love my grandchildren dearly but I can honestly say I have never seen worse behaved children. They don't follow rules at all and will open defy you. No matter how many times you tell them not to do something, they still do it. Most of that results from my daughter's inconsistencies. Sometimes she whips them, sometimes she yells but she doesn't constantly enforce a rule. You have to every single time punish a child for breaking the rules not every other time. Plus she is bad for saying "you keep it up and no tv or whatever punishment" but she never follows through so that teaches the children that they can do whatever and there are no consequences. I have watched and taken care of a lot of children in my life and never have I seen the likes. There is no structure to their lives. No set meal times, bedtimes, etc so they just act all harem scarem. Its to the point now, that I just don't want to be around them at all because of how they act and I never thought I would feel that way about my grandchildren.  Between my daughter and the children they have trashed our home. They value nothing that belongs to us. There is no respect for people or things.  No one cleans up messes. Food in the floor, dishes never washed, toys to trip over, trash left wherever they get done with it. No one throws anything away. They have spilled stuff on every blanket, the pillows, the furniture. They walk on the furniture and no matter how much you yell, punish, or whip they still do it.  Every single thing in the house is treated as their belongings, they never ask to use anything regardless of what it is. I am sick to death of the television being on 24 hours a day.  It doesn't matter what it is, my daughter just hands the baby whatever she wants to play with just to shut her up. Children should be taught they can't have everything.  I want them out of my house but I can't see it happening since they have no where else to go and I can't let them live on the street but at this rate I will be living in the asylum.  I feel bad for my daughter being homeless but these are life choices she keeps making. She is the one who keeps getting pregnant. I am tired all the time from the constant aggravation, the constant noise and the filth at the house. Its all just too much for me. I have prayed for patience, strength, a solution for the housing and nothing has worked. I have yelled at the kids and my daughter and all of them just ignore whatever I say. I just feel like walking away from my life and leaving no forwarding address.