My Soul is Tired

 

Today is one of those days where I am just tired all the way to my soul. Life seems useless, never ending but at the same time flying by. I have been in constant pain for 9 years with not one day of relief. I can't walk more than 50? feet because my knees hurt so bad and I am gasping for breathe. I can't get my knees replaced because I am too fat and I can't lose weight because I can't move without excrutiating pain. I added up what I eat and its less than 900 calories most days.  I have tried all sorts of supplements to find something to help with pain, or my metabolism or just something. Nothing helps, the drs won't give any pain meds thanks to all the drug addicts out there. They are still finding drugs and the rest of us are suffering.

I read blogs on gardening and foraging and want to do that so bad yet can't make it to my own porch most days. I don't even know why I am still alive. Nothing worth living for. I guess so I can take care of my dogs, won't have anything once they are gone. I see posts from people's vacations and know even if I went to that place, I wouldn't be able to do anything. 

I don't have car, no money to get a car, bills are starting to overwhelm me and I can't see a way out.  You can't even complain about life because then people start with all the great stuff. They don't realize how overwhelming it is to have to justify my feelings to them. Their lying to make me feel better only makes it worse. I'm tired all the way to my soul.  I can't see my life ever being better. 

Feastables 4th entry period

sweepstakes entry

Winning Wednesday

 

The dry spell has finally ended. It was 9 days since I won anything. I hate when that happens. 

1. I won a book and an Amazon gift card- Can't wait to read the book. 

2. I won another book and an Amazon gift card. - Sounds pretty interesting. 

Winning Wednesday

 

Well it hasn't been a winning week. Not a single prize :( My cousin did win on a contest I told him to enter if that counts. He won a backyard barbeque from a local tv station. We thought they bought like Dickie's barbeque and brought to you but no, they are coming Thursday to cook at our house and do a short video. They bring all the food they say to feed up to 10 people but not drinks or dishes. Going to take them 90 minutes they say. I would not have entered or told him to enter if I had known that. We have to get the porch all cleaned up, grass mowed etc so we can be camera ready. And he isn't thrilled about having to be on tv. Food had better be good is all I can say. 

I did get the Hunts Brothers Pizza Fan of the week pack I won last week. It had lots of nice stuff. 2 die cast cars, a hand towel, a calendar, can koozie, couple of key rings, magnets, stickers, sunglasses, 2 really nice shirts. 

I also got the package that the dogs won on Instagram.  It had 2 kinds of treats, several toys and some other things to make dog life easier

Bud Light On Us Sweepstakes

 Bud Light On Us Sweepstakes (AL, AR, HI, IN, LA, MO, NC, TX, UT & WV only) 9/6/23

https://www.budlight.com/budlightonussweeps

Eligibility:

Open to legal residents of AL, AR, HI, IN, LA, MO, NC, TX, UT and WV who are 21 or older at the time of entry.

Limit of one entry per person per entry period:

05/17/23 - 05/31/23

06/01/23 - 07/08/23

07/09/23 - 09/06/23

Prizes:

(1000) $15 digital gift cards per entry period

https://www.budlight.com/bud-ligh...eeps-rules

Winning Wednesday

 

1. Got an email saying I won a Hunt Brothers Pizza No. 4 fan pack. No idea where I signed up at though. Guess we shall see what is the prize when it comes

2. Won a $15 Visa prepaid card from  Corona - I immediately used to buy an Amazon card. Thats what I almost always do with these things so I don't forget about them. 

3. A wax warmer and Tapestry from Legacy of the Luna by Lorelie Weston giveaway (my first win for July)

4. Won a $5 gift card from my choice of vendor from Christina Farley- Naturally I choose Amazon. 

this is the shaving set I won on twitter a couple weeks ago. Its really nice but way out of my budget. Retail cost is about $104.something.. I love the smell and its a great razor but I won't be able to reorder from them. But if you can afford that price then its a great kit. Also they show a picture on the website with all the products sitting in the bag but thats about all they do is sit. You can't zip them up inside the bag they don't fit. Looks like they would have made the bag a bit bigger. 

This is the robot vacuum I won a little while back from Susie Reviews and OKPLIFE